What kind of girl am i?

me? i can't labelled myself in one type only, because i have a different personality on every different aspect of my life, it's all depends on who i have to deal with. i'm stubborn girl with my own opinion~ there are things that i have to let it be done according to my own style, funny girl~ love to laugh hysterically and tell silly jokes even people think that my joke too lame, shy at first, as i get to be comfortable with someone, i'm loud and bubbly  and happy go lucky, emotional, i cry when i watch sad sappy love stories, deep down inside me i'm still a girl forced to be grown up in my own imaginary life, sometimes i forgot how to breathe, i create my own fairytale, wishing for magical dreams become true. something sweet like princess, easy to say, i'm a dreamer. :)

yeah princess... :)

Dedicated to someone who make my tears off everyday...~

Hahahah... why need to post about him? 

nothing. cuz i like to make him angry and hate me..

and because of that i  can keep in touch with him..

huh... typical woman la ko ni emma....~

Sigh.. can't help my feeling.

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone

Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?

The girl in  the dress cried the whole way home.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Day 27: a person you wished lived closer and why

Ayah...

OKay, ayah meninggal semase emma umor 18 tahun..

mase ayah meninggal, ayah sempat pesan jage haikal elok2...

kite tak tau ape yg akan jd akan dtg..

make persiapkan diri dengan pelbagai kekuatan..

Yeah.. nasihat tu mmg emma pgg sampai skrg.. sampai la emma melalui peringkat kematangan ini...

okeh...soalan ini membuatkan emma tacing lebih... so stop here.. :')

Day 26: 5 things you’re looking forward to

Yay!!! 1st.. my holiday aka my honeymoon, which will be one week on March, i guess. But now i am enjoying my holiday, not really.. 2nd, my son  birthday.. lalalalalaa... yeah, i know he'll be turning 4. Wow, i look so young for have a son. >.< 3rd, my family. I miss them! 4th,my bonus. now almost 1 year i have working at Prince Court Medical Centre. nthough .5th, my DATE with someone that i dont know who he is and where that guy.. . =) 

Day 25: the last movie you watched

Dredd.

Yeah the last movie i watched with my friends.

Hanif.

Sound crazy when i can get long with him.

cause he's best buddy my ex husband.

more special about that.

we watched the movie with 3D effect.

the story was not so good but i enjoyed watching it with hanif..

p/s : tiada perasaan lain selain kawan dan yg sentiasa menasihati sy dlm kehidupan.. terima kasih hanif.. :)

Day 24: your favorite 10 people right now and why

I don’t really have 10 specific people on my list right now.

 But i do have some.

First and foremost will be my best buddy ever!! 

And also my baby boo. I know it sound so cheesy, but who cares right. 

We need to spread more love. 

Haha.

My best buddy is Ellyma Nasir. :) who can treat my son like her son..

homaigoood...~

Mommy Elly aka step mother..

Next will be my family. 

If you know each and everyone of them you’ll understand what i’m talking about, 

there are the talkative one, the craziest, 

the coolest and funniest, supportive. 

all in all they are the one i turn to when i need a family time.

My friends, 

my primary and high school friends that i find amusing 

because they are all connected,

 i wonder how is it happen. 

And cheers to all my new friends that i just met in my current place, 

that i love to work and hang out with.

And lastly to every random person that i talked on the monorel Imbi, 

while i’m patiently waiting for my ex husband to pass a thing..

 Haha. 

I know it’s crazy, 

but that’s the truth.

Day 23: a month/year of your life when you were happiest and why

usually it will be the last month of the year ~December. maybe due to the new year revolution that makes it so special. and maybe because of my birthday.. oh first january.. there will be a lot of family gathering, have fun and party all night long.

but this year it will be totally different as there will be no more love for the man who not deserved to it..

 shhooot!! 

hate it.

I don't have any idea.. :(

i really don't have any idea what to post on my own blog. as my holiday is starting this night (but i need to go to work), i might as well take this chance to write as many posts as possible. so i end up google for ideas on what to post on my blog and i end up with some few tips. i will write about my childhood memories,yay!! i have a fun childhood back then. can't wait to share some silly things i did. Try my best.. :) Suggestion might be from Afiq Anwar.. Thank you..

Day 22: how you judge intelligence

I'm often amazed by people who are very skilled in areas I am not. 

by the way they talk, the words they use.

through their works.

intelligent person just gives off an energy that you can tell  that they are smart.

and i believe that everyone is smart in their own way. 

but sadly, nowadays, people judge intelligence according to how long have you been studying? what courses you take? why are we doing this to ourselves? Hurm... 

we have to go through years and years of concentrated study  just to sit for exams. in order to generate a piece of paper telling me I am worth something?

what happen to those that not as smart as intelligent people? 

why is it that you are medical and engineering student, you're respected.

but if you're not continue your study, nobody really care.

surely there’s a broader definition of intelligence than that.

Day 21: what does your favorite tshirt look like

Yeah, like to wear a t-shirt. <3

prefer funny t shirt with some quote..

i thing i have one..

the blue one.

but i think that kind of t shirt out of my taste now.

cause now i like to wear dress.. with a skirt..

ahaks... 

too gedix okay...

oh no... dah lari dari soalan ni...

okay the most t shirt that i like..

okeh...cute nah...

but...gemok!!!!

hahaha...this picture was a memory for me..

last honeymoon at pangkor sioot...

urgh...stupid.

okeh thats all..

Day 20: what you think makes someone beautiful

Day 19: your thoughts on your family

i believe that every family have their secrets.

that's what makes them so mysterious.

from a dark past into a bright future.

i have a great family.

my dad is an excellent story-teller.

the way he tells story to us was really captivating.

he used to tell bedtime stories and drive me into dreamland where my imagination started to ponder.

i think that's where i got my creative artistic side

he thinks ahead of time.

he is hardworking.

he is a good entertainer

an awesome father

some people even said that my father was so hilarious.

joking around each other about my love life, my study.

but he got his serious side too, that's when you shouldn't mess with him.

But now.. he's going far from us.

He passed away when i was 18.

Hope that he'll rest in peace..

Amiin.. ;) miss you ayah..

my mom is a perfect-match for my dad.

they both know their partner favorite place to hang out. and that's where they usually end up meeting.

my mom is my dad personal helper,

i do gossiping with my mom & it's fun thing to do.

she always support my interest . she is the reason why i love travelling now.

my mom with my sister.. :)

it's like both my parents are my bestest friends ever.

i got 2 big brothers and a big sister.

i love to hang out with them. laugh around.

my big sis is a teacher, so she will be acting like one even when she is at home. she is loud, talkative, bubbly, crazy and funny. her food is tasteless ~according to my mom~ but it is tasty. she is crazy with her healthy meal. she is bigger than me (sure!)

my big bro is the laid back kind of guy. but he is an emotional gummy bear. hahaa. he is friendly, as most of his friends is half his age. a funny guy and he got his own charms. people listen when he talks, maybe because he is a smooth talker. haha. he is scared of the dark and very picky about food.

my 2nd brother is a rebel too, i spent most of my teenage life with him, i always annoy by asking him a lot of silly question but he still answer it. he always said nice interesting weird quotes about life. that's when i discovered that men do think differently from girl, they have their own unique perspective view of life. he only started to speak a lot when i ask him and when he think i take a wrong way to solve my problem. 

and me?

i'm a rebel too. my mom always asked me why i have a lots of guy friends, she thought that i'm a rolling stone ~always changing boyfriend kind of girl~. haha.  hello.. just a friend. not more that that until i meet my ex husband...  when i said that i'm gonna study abroad, my mom scared that i might be able to cope with it. i know in her eyes, i will always be her baby girl. before this i have trouble getting along with my mom, it takes a huge fight to stop her from treating me like a little innocent girl. but now we get along very well.

we may look different, maybe because we were born all over the places. some was born in bagan serai, kota kinabalu and tanjung karang and i'm the only one born in my own house.. hahhah. the first two siblings have curly hair - they follow my dad genes-, and the rest, which is my 2nd bro, me and  have thick wavy hair -we follow my mom genes- we may be vary in our height, some talls, some are petite like me. but we are family. i love my family!! miss you all guys. can't wait to be coming home. enjoy some good food and celebrate the happiness of life and be grateful that we still can rock our lives!!

my lovely brothers with their family

Day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it

i love this Q!!

why??

because i'm a secretive person.

i kept my personal life behind closed door.

i feel like i have a total control over my blog.

i can post whatever pictures, quotes and say whatever i want in my own blog.

& let people take a sip of my awesome life.

hahahaa. 

but the most important thing is to give me a chance to write a journal of my life.

reminiscence the good old days and re-evaluate the true meaning behind the journey of my life. 

and probably because i have problems with remember things that happen in my life, 

so by keeping a blog, i know what happen in my life so far.

and i have a lots to talked about, but most of the times i only post pics with quotes, weird huh?

i have 2 blogs. but i only kept this one open for public viewer. 

i feel like i'm alive.

that's why i still have my blog..

Day 17: your idol and why you look up to them

i remember someone used to said that his idol is Paris Hilton.

it's not because he adores her so much.

but he learn something from all the mistakes she did.

so mine will be...

nobody

next challenge please!!!

hehe..

okay..

i'll try my best to answer every question on this challenge.

so my idol will be.

none other than the female country singer, taylor swift.

 because of her lovely songs.

she express her feelings through her songs and she really meant it.

every moment in my love life can be related into her songs.

you will know it from the previous challenge that i did.

but..i think i wanna change it to.. eun hye, 

who is she?

nah...

cute right?

i dont know why i'm too obsess with her..

might be because....

hehehehe..

sogan den nak kabar..

=,=

same muke ke?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH..

but totally

she's so adorable... :)

Day 16: someone you trust

the truth is..

i have some trust issue.

i didn't trust people easily and completely.

not even myself.

i'm scared of rejection and disappointment.

so i don't trust and i don't hope not even believe in promise.

Coffee break.. :)

lets take a break for a while

and reminiscence the past few days.

1st..

Haikal going to school for the first day on 3rd January...

Hahaha.. lil bit awkward when i sent him to kindergarten school.

He's crying, crying and crying. 

Kesian...~

Picture?

hurm.. act i lost my precious pendrive.

so semua gambar menangis dan berbaju sekolah haikal hilang juga..

but its okay.. Lain time boleh ambik lagi...

2nd..

Pandan Jaya tiada air...

agak kasihan bukan..?

hari2 mengangkot air dari bawak ke rumah..

4 tingkat okay... so keburukan... 

air agak kurang bersih..

dan kebaikannya..

sy semakin kurus dan kurus..

HAHAHAH!!

That all... so continue with my work.. :)

Day 15: a song that makes you cry and why

Teardrops on my guitars by Taylor Swift

He's the guy I'd been waiting for all my life to come and save me.

when he did appeared, i thought he was coming to take me away. 

instead he was running away from me. 

leaving me alone, back to my own little world.

saw him with someone he shouldn't be with.

trying to ignore it, but still i can't.

Speak Now by Taylor Swift

this is my last chance, it's now or never.

didn't care about the consequences.

I'd Lied by Taylor Swift

& i could tell you, he's favorite colour's green.

he likes to argue, born on the 8th.

his sister beautiful, he has his father's eyes.

Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all

Day 13: your favorite quote

Day 12: the best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

Life isn't fair but it's still good.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Make peace with your past, so it won’t screw up the present.
Take a deep breath. It calms the mind
Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
Don’t save the nicest things for a special occasion.Today is special.
Time heals almost everything
Don’t take yourself so seriously
Forgive and forget.
Believe in miracles.
Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Day 11: the worst advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

Usually when someone says that to me, i have the extreme urge to do the opposite.

i'm a rebel. but being a rebel is not about smocking crack, be a drinker or a fighter.

a Rebel is

Someone who stands up for their own personal opinions despite what anyone else says. 

A true rebel stands up for what they believe is right, not against what’s right.

Jom Heboh

OK.. I would like to start with 

Yeah..gadis pingitan.. ops sorry.. i'm not gadis anymore.hahah

Firstly,

we arriving at Bukit Jalil might be around 11.30am. not sure about time.

Fuh... RAMAI GILE NAK MAMPOSS..

di situ terdapat pelbagai gelagat kanak2 riang yg berpakaian pelik2..

hurm... forget about that.

what i want to tell is...

heheh.. bergambar dgn artis siot..

even i don't even know who she is actually, do i care?

the important thing is oh my picture... so sweet. ahaks.

heheh..ok ini mojo. hurm.. firstly i dont like him. But my friends pergh.. fanatic with him. hahaha.walaupun x berape minat la kan. berkesempatan jugak nak amek gmbr dgn die. dan yg paling best.. mojo wish birthday okay.. walaupun hari tu baru 31 dec 2012..  <3

bawah ni adam AF.. x sempat nk bergambar dgn dia sbb time tu sebok nk pusing satu jom heboh kan... dapat la gmbr sisi dia pun dah kire okay. <3 btw.. suare die comel.

pada masa tu jugak la, ema kenal dgn seorang lelaki yg bekerja di maybank. eceh. bukan kesah cinte ye,, lelaki tu pakcik syida x silap. err.. x ingat tp ade la bau2 diorg.. ha.. yg kelakarnya. disuruh kitorg join ASB.. hahah..tp buat sbb nk dpt hadiah jer.. 

sape kate x dpt.. dpt wey... ce tgk..

i thought that it could be easy for me to catch that f**king paper.

strees!

overall, the trip to Jom Heboh. sgt2 awesome la.. Thanks to Ellyma Nasir dan Taman Rasyidah Utama.(their facebook name) so below is mine. arigato..anda sgt comel ema...!!

Bye2.....~

Day 10: what you think when you hear the words “be yourself”

Firstly, i always be myself.

Why? and how do i know?

because i know that i'm so special, my kindness, my heart.

it's all unique.

but, nobody know what's true i am.

because me, is me..

about me. not about you.

there's something that i can do and nobody can't/

hahaha...membangge pulak.

dan.....

it better to be hated for

what you are then 

to be loved for what you are not. :) right?